Unit 5 - The subtle mind

I think the mind is anything else but subtle....at least mine is. It's stubborn and strong. Very hard to calm down. But repeated meditation can work wonders. This weeks meditation, the subtle mind, actually calmed my mind, since it had to be focused on exactly one focal point. As opposed to last weeks meditation where we had to go through steps of liking and sending, and visualizing many different things. This time we had to calm our mind, not activate our mind in a certain direction. Breathing was a good focal point, because it always happens, whether we want ti or not. I once got the feeling of stillness - the moment when the focal point slowly changes from your breathing to stillness itself. How wonderful! To be able to just be....without questions or problems, or things to do!

This stillness persisted for a little while..then my not so subtle mind awoke again and off I was to the races. Frustrating. But I know with more practice more stillness can come. This stillness though I find I can reproduce every now and then during the day - I just focus on my breath and there it is. This stillness is very important to me - many situations in which I would immediately react, and blurt out what does not need to be said, I have a second time to think whether it really is important to be said by me now, and often times I don't say what I initially thought so important to say. I want to do this more often than not. So I keep meditating and calming my mind.....