Nobody can teach what he hasn't learned before. And even further, nobody can teach what he is not practicing . I remember how appaled I was when I saw the surgeon who would do my appendectomy the next day, drinking and smoking in a little bar. I immediately lost trust in him - he operated anyway, and all went fine, but I did have major apprehensions. I think the most important part of healing is understanding and knowing what it means to be healed - having gone through the process oneself makes you a better healer. For instance, I always had a woman assisting with the birth of my children. It just made more sense to trust a woman who has gone through it herself. There are wonderful obstetricians out there, don't get me wrong, but personally, I trust a woman more. She just knows not only the facts and the physical process but she also knows about the mental, and spiritual part of giving birth. So, in order to teach or heal integral health I have to practice it myself - and how will I implement spiritual growth? By meditating regularly, by being still and listen, by feeling love and kindness, and by ever trying to grow more.
The Asclepian meditation was a little hard for me - I have a person who I think is a mentor, a spiritual advisor, and an awesome human being. But when I visualized the beams of light from his mind to mine, from his communication chakra to mine, etc. I felt like I am stealing something from him. Somehow I felt it was wrong to just take these powers without asking his permission - although I knew I would not literally take them away from him. So, I tried it again with an imaginary Asclepius, and that worked better. It really always makes me calmer and more confident when I meditate these kinds of meditations. Cool! I like it!
I would have great aprehensions as well if I saw my surgeon drinking. You are also correct in that we cannot go back to a place we have never been. When it came to imagining a person, all I could think of was my grandmother that I posted about a couple of weeks ago. I don't do well imagining lights focusing on or coming out of her. This is another visualization that I could not really connect with. I did try though.
ReplyDeleteI truly appreciate your sharing your thoughts with us. I do have mixed thoughts about your insights. I understand your thoughts and feelings towards your surgeon, but on the other hand, I think it is important not to hold others to such high standards.
ReplyDeleteFor example, I use to be a Police Officer. I also use to smoke. I worked the midnight shift (10pm - 6 am). I would occasionally have a smoke out in public and if a citizen saw me, they would often be shocked and say "I can't believe you smoke!". I was always curious as to why that was so shocking. I enforced the laws, and smoking was not against the law. However, some folks would hold police officers to very high standards. We do this of doctors, preachers, teachers and other public officials.
I see what you are saying, but I suppose I just share a different view.
Again, I do appreciate the respectful way you share your views:)
George